Unbearable Pain: A Personal Battle With the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It began on a dreary Monday morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a educator, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sharp pain sprang behind my one eye. It was followed by quick stabs, similar to lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the pain subsided and then returned with greater force. Multiple times that day I handed over a colleague with worksheets and hurried to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I tried aspirin, but the agony remained unbearable.

The attacks returned repeatedly that fall, and again in the spring, soon establishing an annual cycle. The autumn months were the worst, then the late winter. I could predict the routine: aura in the shower, early pangs on the commute, full-blown agony in the classroom by 9.30am. In 2019, a GP finally referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

This condition often begin with intense discomfort around a single eye that persists for several hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 individuals suffer by the disorder, and males are more often affected. Attacks typically start with sudden, severe pain around a single eye that reaches its peak within a short time and continues for up to three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or face sweating. There exists an episodic type, which occurs in seasonal bouts; others have continuous cluster headaches, characterized by the absence of extended symptom-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the intensity. One study scored the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. A separate discovered 64% of cluster patients experienced suicidal thoughts during bouts; the number dropped to four percent when they were pain-free.

One patient, 74, a chronic sufferer from Wales, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the ground and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, like several causes, made things more intense. After drinking sherry at her school leaving party, she recalls barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often interpreted her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Support finally came from her father and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often concealed her illness. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a national hospital.

Still, the failure to organize life around erratic attacks took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her children during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the small liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The first account of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write authors in a book on the subject. They linked the disease to an evil entity who afflicted his victims' heads.

Historical medical texts suggest unusual treatments for what modern observers would classify as a migraine. In the middle ages, migraine was identified as a distinct condition, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more folk remedies.

It was a European doctor who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster headache. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing daily at specific hours”.

The disorder were only officially classified by global medical committees in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a key artery which delivers blood to the head. Leading experts in diagnosing the condition explain this.

In the late 1990s, researchers published the results of a research project for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The data, featured in a major medical publication, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they recovered.

Despite such advances, diagnosis remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's symptoms started in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he had four operations before eventually being correctly identified in 2014, after a physician looked up his complaints.

Specialists say delays in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other primary headache conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A thorough patient history is essential: on which part of the head do symptoms appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Specific characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But a lot of first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate therapies.

A charity trustee, 78, has experienced the condition for the majority of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth extracted because dentists misunderstood her pain. She thinks dentists still need greater education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who replied. The author recalls calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring advisor talked them through oxygen treatment and medication until the attack passed.

Official guidance on treatment advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication delivered by injection. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the attacks of some individuals.

But leading neurologists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a more defined clinical process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The duration of the bout determines the approach.” Short cycles with occasional attacks are managed with abortive treatment only. Longer or more severe periods require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an procedure into the side of the skull where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.

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Kristie Rogers
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